PocKy-cHoccOlate

di awal november ini kita bersua sayang…
sebulan sudah kita jalin benang cinta

with talks
with smiles
with laughs
with jokes
with care
with argue
with cries
with crazy things that we’ve done
until we never know what will come to us

and when IT came…
u think that IT will be the end of ur life
and u know…
i’m not gonna leave u sayang…
i’ll stay beside u till death do us appart

u said that i’m gonna be ur last chapter in ur life
i said that ur gonna be my best chapter i ever have

i said that u are not only my sweet november, u are my sweet december,
january, february, etc
and u said that i’m good in a calendar
then we laugh together

i love you.. my Gee..
can we just enjoy diz life even we both know that our time is limit…?
i promised u.. i’m not gonna leave u.. until THAT time will come

u said that i’m stronger than u
i said that i’m gonna be strong for u
i was cry sayang.. i’m scare i cant see u for the LAST time

u said…
"when the TIME has come..
i`ll be beside u wherever u are honey even u cant see me
and all i can say for u is a thank you for colourfull my life
and make a hope for me."

i’m just speechless when u sayin that to me
i dont know what have to say.. i just dont know..

surabaya, 30 november 2007
02:07 PM

-chocco-

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
ohhhhhh,

I know that he loves me cause told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause its me he trust
and he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we’ve haven’t argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each other’s hands,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right there and then that you were the one

I know that he loves cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it’s obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trust
and he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

I’m so happy, so happy that your in my my life
and baby now that your apart of me
you’ve showed me
showed me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)
and I know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it’s obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trust
and he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell it so

gw tadi baru aja shopping with my lovely best fren di mall…
abiez beli belanja-belanji n pusing liatin mall yg mendadak penuh dengan orang-orang yang belanja-belanji *gini nih kalo shopping pas deket2 lebaran* so gw n my best fren milih duduk-duduk di excelso sambil melepas lelah sebelum menuju next eiger store.. (mo beli tas eiger gw)

nah my best fren ini dikenal sebagai orang yg jayus, selengean, usil plus iseng plus lemodznya minta ampun… sebut saja namanya "codok"
tiba-tiba si codok mulai bercerita tentang ke 5 wanitanya (bukan mantan tapi 5 wanita yg benar2 sedang jalan sama si codok ini). ke 5 wanita ini tinggal dalam satu kota dg si codok, alias semuanya berada di surabaya dan si codok jalan dg mereka barengan tanpa ke 5 wanita ini saling tahu dan kenal (well ada 1 wanita sih yang tahu soal kelakuan si codok, jadi skrg tinggal 4 wanita yg ga tahu hehehehe).

si codok cerita kalau dia pusing banget… pusingnya karena ke 4 wanita nya ini mudik dg waktu, pesawat, dan permintaan yang sama (he???). ok maksudna gini… ke 4 wanita ini meminta codok untuk nganterin mereka ke bandara. awalnya codok iya-iya saja karena ngira nya mereka mudik ga bareng waktunya. Setelah ditelaah dan ditelusuri… ternyata eh ternyata… ke 4 wanita ini secara kebetulan membeli tiket dengan pesawat yang sama dan waktu keberangkatan yang sama (dueeengggggg)

dan sekarang si codok pusing abiezz mikirin ini perkara.. secara ke empat-empatnya tuh pada nuntut untuk dianterin ke bandara pas mereka mudik.. (blaaa… woo.. ooo.. kamu ketahuan..). Abiz gw denger cerita si codok ini, gw ngakak bangeut dah.. but akhirnya gw kasih saran aja, for a while "iya"in aja request na mereka then pas hari H bilang aja lg sakit karena kecapean. So lolos deh dari tiang gantungan sementara waktu hehehehehe

dasar si codok… banyak bener dah punya wanita.. tapi meski begitu, si codok ini ga pernah berbuat yg aneh-aneh ama para wanita nya. si codok hanya memberikan perhatian dan kasih sayang pada mereka. ini pertanyaan gw ama codok pas di excelso :

chocco : loe tuh sebenarnya ngajak jadian gt ama mereka?
codok    : ga ada kata jadian dan gue ga ajak mereka jadian.
chocco : lah trus…?
codok    : mereka sendiri yang ngikat gue dan gue ga pernah ngapa-ngapain ma mereka. ML aja kagak, gue ga ada nafsu ama mereka. lah gue ciuman ama mereka aja gue kagak "turn on". loe tahu sendiri lah gue "turn on" cuma sama "the one" (cewek terakhir dan cinta mati si codok). bagi gue cuma "the one" yang ada di hati gue. mereka tahu dan suka sebel sambil nanya "apa sih hebadnya ‘the one’ dibanding gue??"
chocco : (ngakak) trus.. trus..?
codok    : ya gitu deh.. (pasang tampang melas)

well fren.. seharusnya elo tahu kalo elo tuh beruntung banget punya 5 wanita yg sayang ama elo, memberi perhatian sama elo, cuma.. harus 5 wanita yakk?? busyett dah banyak bener sih wanita nya.. masih banyak sodara-sodara kita yg sering kerepotan nyari wanita eh ini malah dapet 5 kqkqkqkqkqkqkq

bro.. open ur heart for another women ok.. tapi kalo memang keputusanmu untuk tetep mencintai "the one" then take da risk (I already take da risk = kata si codok)

that’s all folks.. secuil cerita setelah shopping yg buat gue ngakak-ngakak..

for mijn schat.. I’m maybe not that kind person.. but I’m the person who always devoted my life for love.. and I always be  a faith full lover for you.. there were so many stories from my past. But.. you are my presents.. you are the one that I devoted my love for now..

ik hou van jou schat…

Remember that moment when we first met
Remember that moment when you see in my eyes
Remember that moment when you wanna kiss me
Remember that moment when I was surprised for what you asked for
Remember that moment when we miss each other… until now…
Remember that moment when we think each other… until now…

Remember this moment that I wanna see you there…
Remember this moment that I wanna hugz you here…
Remember this moment that I wanna kizz you here…
Remember this moment that I wanna you were here with me

Remember that moment that I was hurting you.. and its makes me so sad..
I cant sleep dear…
I’m not comfy with this hurt feelin..
and I remember the nite after we were fight… you called me up..
when I’m just laydown on my bed thinkin of you..
you said… “where are you? what are you doing? I love you..”
I’m here schat.. thinking of you.. I love you too…
you said… “dont hurt me Schat..”
I’m try to not dear.. I’m sorry… Can you forgive me..?
you said… “I forgive you.. I dont want to cut off our contact Schat..”
either do I dear…
you said again… “I love you.. kiss me…”
I love you too Schat…

Dear God.. please take care of her for me…
she’s the women that I love..
she’s the women that love me so..
she’s the women that support my life..
she’s the women for the reason of my life..
she’s the women that I don’t want to hurt..
she’s the women that she doesn’t want to hurt me..
she is mein schatzi… my schatje… my love… mon amour… mi amor…

I`ve juz met you Schat…
I`ve juz move on from my past
its so instanly that we met hun..

u said that u mizz me so much… i miz u too schat
u said that I drive u crazy.. u drive me crazy too
u said that u wanna kiz me.. i wanna kiz u too
u said that u wanna hugz me.. i wanna hugz u too
juz laydown beside me schat.. then i’m gonna kiz n hugz u..

i’m not gonna be ur guardian..
but i’m gonna take care of you as long as i can breathe
i’m not a hero.. Schat..
i’m not even an angel..
i’m juz a human being who’s try to love you

dengan ketulusan kasih sayangku padamu

trust… comitment… communication…
thats our princip on diz relationship

apakah kita bisa melewati semua ini?
u said to me "let it flow… schat…"

sungguh long distance relationship dah…
cant wait to meet you schat…
tiket sby-jkt please……!! kqkqkqkqkq

I didn’t hear what you were saying
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions, never maybe
And I’m not kind if you betray me
So who the hell are you to save me?
I never would’ve made it baby

[Bridge]
If you needed love
Well then ask for love
Could have given love
Now I’m taking love
And it’s not my fault
Coz you both deserve
What’s coming now
So don’t say a word

[Chorus]
Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore? Don’t you care about me?
I don’t think so
Six foot tall came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won’t come around here anymore. Come around here? I don’t think so

Would’ve bared to make you happy
You didn’t need to treat me that way
And now you beat me at my own game
And now I’m finally sleeping soundly
And your lover’s screaming loudly, here a sound and hit the ground

[Bridge]
If you needed love
Well then ask for love
Could have given love
Now I’m taking love
And it’s not my fault
Coz you both deserve
What’s coming now
So don’t say a word

[Chorus]
Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another man in my bed
You don’t care about me anymore. Care about me?
I don’t think so
Six foot tall came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won’t come around here anymore, come around here?
I don’t feel so bad, I don’t feel so bad, I don’t feel so bad

[Breakdown]
I’m so sorry darling; did I do the wrong thing?
Oh, what was I thinking?
Is his heart still beating?

Woah oh oooh

[Chorus]
Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore? Don’t you care about me?
I don’t think so
Six foot tall came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won’t come around here anymore. He won’t come around here. I don’t feel so bad

[Chorus]
Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore? Don’t you care about me?
I don’t feel so bad
Six foot tall came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won’t come around here anymore. No, he won’t come around here. I don’t feel so bad

I don’t feel so bad (Wake up call)
I don’t feel so bad (Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed)
I don’t feel so bad (Don’t you care about me anymore?)

Don’t you care about me? I don’t feel so bad..

ps : why I like diz song? pertama video klipnya keren, kedua liriknya remind me ama mantan gw yg terakhir maren ini. gimana dia selingkuh dan akhirnya dia ketahuan ma gw kalo dia selingkuh :Pp lucuna.. gw masih sayang ma dia even gw dah tahu diselingkuhin. Mymi.. aku emang masih sayang ma kamu but love must go on.. with or without you babe.. ciao..

Haha, ay yo
You dont have to love me
You dont even have to like me
But you will respect me
You know why
Cuz im a boss

Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch that beat go…

[Kelis]
I’m bossy
I’m the first girl to scream on a track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That’s right i brought all the boys to the yard
And that’s right, i’m the one whose tattooed on his arm
I’m bossy
I’m the bitch y’all love to hate
I’m the chick that’s raised the stake
I told young stunna he should switch to BAPE
I’m back with an 808 cause i’m bossy

Ooh lemme slow it down for ya so you can catch the flow
Screw it up make it go extra slow
Real girls get down on the flo (on the flo get down, on the flo)
Ooh i gave you a taste you want some more
Touch down on it like a pro
I ride the beat like a bicycle, icy cold
Ooh from the 6-4 hoppers up in crenshaw
The money makin playas up in harlem
Don’t want no problem
We gon keep it bumpin while the 808 is jumpin

Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill
Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill

I’m bossy
I’m the first girl to scream on a track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That’s right i brought all the boys to the yard
And that’s right, i’m the one whose tattooed on his arm
I’m bossy
I’m the bitch y’all love to hate
I’m the chick that’s raised the stake
I told young stunna he should switch to BAPE
I’m back with an 808 cause i’m bossy

Ooh (i bet i bet i bet) i bet cha neva heard it like this before (this before)
My baby be closin’ them phantom doors
The bar poppin list that you can’t afford (can’t afford)
Ooh i’m drinkin blastin the crowds it’s all smokin
All the while i’m all open
Me and my girls we stay fly and we love to stay high
Ooh from the 6-4 hoppers up in crenshaw
To the money makin playas up in harlem
Don’t want no problems
We gon keep it bumpin while the 808 is jumpin

Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill
Diamonds on my neck, di-diamonds on my grill

I’m bossy
I’m the first girl to scream on a track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That’s right i brought all the boys to the yard
And that’s right i’m the one whose tattooed on his arm
I’m bossy
I’m the bitch ya’ll love to hate
I’m the chick that’s raised the stakes
I told young stunna he should switch to BAPE
I’m back with an 808 cause i’m bossy

[Too $hort]
It’s bout time that she get with me
Can’t stop starin, she’s fine and she’s pretty
Damn girl, don’t hurt em
If niggas don’t fight back, you gon’ work ‘em
Put your mack down, i know your background
What chu want girl, you gettin mad now
That’s how you do it, huh?
Well i’m the coolest one
If bad bitches in the back bring em to the front
(Be-itch) Tell that man you’s a boss bitch
Make some noise, raise your hand if you’s a boss bitch
I don’t think he understand you’s a boss bitch
Get some help if you can cause he lost it
Ain’t no refunds, she spent the cash mayne
In your benz with her friends in the fast lane
Flossin, you say “how much it cost me?”
About a million dollars playa, she’s bossy

[Kelis]
I’m bossy
I’m the first girl to scream on a track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That’s right i brought all the boys to the yard
And that’s right i’m the one whose tattooed on his arm
I’m bossy
I’m the bitch y’all love to hate
I’m the chick that’s raised the stake
I told young stunna he should switch to BAPE
I’m back with an 808 cause i’m bossy

Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh… watch the beat go…
Uh uh…

L word…
Suatu serial film yang diproduksi oleh salah satu perusahaan film di Amerika dan menceritakan tentang kehidupan beberapa Lesbian yang tinggal di Los Angeles dan mereka saling berinteraksi dengan segala intrik, konflik, cinta, dan segala macamnya.
Querr as A Folk
Suatu serial film yang di produksi oleh perusahaan yang sama dengan produser film L word. Dari isi film tidak jauh beda dengan L Word, hanya saja Querr as A Folk menceritakan tentang sisi Gay nya.

Dan aku secara pribadi lebih menyukai Querr as A Folk daripada L Word. Karena dari segi cerita, Querr as A Folk lebih bagus dan lebih menarik bagiku meski aku seorang lesbian (ga peresss). Dan dalam Querr as A Folk aku sangat menyukai sosok Bryan, just remind you all that I`m still a Lesbian, but nge fans sama cowok kan ga terlarang. Toh hanya sekedar ngefans saja, ga naksir :Pp

Munculnya L Word dan Querr as A Folk di Indonesia via DVD, membuat dunia perfilman Indonesia semakin sering dijumpai film-film DVD yang bertemakan LGBT. Meski tidak banyak orang heteroseksual yang tahu tentang film-film tersebut namun untuk kalangan homoseksual sendiri, film-film tersebut banyak dikejar baik original atau versi bajakannya. Bahkan salah satu temanku rela beli dengan harga mahal via internet film bertemakan Lesbian yang sudah jarang dijumpai di Indonesia. Mungkin kita harus berterima kasih pada teknologi untuk masalah ini. Aku mempunyai film bertemakan LGBT ketika aku masih menginjak SMP. Bisa dibilang aku adalah movie fans meski ga nge fans-fans amat, tapi aku lebih menyukai nonton film lepas daripada sinetron ga jelas di TV. Pas SMP aku mempunyai langganan rental VCD dan sudah akrab dengan pemiliknya. Bahkan aku selalu mendapatkan referensi film-film baru dari dia atau ketika ada dia mempunyai film baru dan sekiranya aku tertarik maka sudah dipastikan aku mendapatkan giliran pertama yang menyewa. Semua film yang aku tonton pada waktu itu masih film-film umum. Dari hollywood hingga bollywood. Hingga suatu saat isengku kumat dengan meminjam VCD india dengan judul FIRE, karena sudah ga ada film baru lagi yang bisa aku tonton dan aku butuh tontonan di rumah. Awalnya aku ga merasa FIRE itu film yang menarik, karena covernya yang jelek dan ga menarik, ga seperti VCD india pada umumnya. Cuma karena ga ada tontonan lain ya terpaksa. Dan setelah cek dan ricek, eng ing eng… diz is a lesbian movie dan itu adalah pertama kalinya aku nonton film dengan tema homoseksual. Dan beberapa tahun kemudian rental itu mau tutup sehingga dia menjual beberapa filmnya dengan separuh harga. Bisa ditebak, FIRE its in my hand rite now. Dan beberapa tahun kemudian aku memberikan film tersebut to my butchie fren yang sangat menyukai FIRE.

Aku mungkin bukan seseorang yang maniak dengan film yang bertemakan LGBT. Karena semua koleksi film-filmku yang bertemakan LGBT aku dapatkan secara tidak sengaja atau pas kebetulan aku lagi iseng hunting film di Pasar Atom, jadi tidak bisa dibilang koleksiku banyak. Film kedua yang aku temukan ketika tidak sengaja jalan-jalan ke Tunjungan Plaza bersama teman-temanku yang Lesbian. Waktu itu kita iseng ke stand DVD untuk melihat-lihat film. Dan guess what? Aku menemukan film If This Wall Could Talk 2 yang sering sekali digembor-gemborkan oleh temenku sebagai film bertemakan Lesbian yang bagus banget. Ga usah berpikir panjang lagi akhirnya aku dan beberapa temanku urunan untuk membelinya saat itu juga. Dan sekali lagi aku merelakan film itu untuk dibawah salah satu temanku. Yang penting bagiku, aku sudah menonton (do I look mind for that? :Pp)

Jujur saja aku lebih menyukai film bertemakan LGBT yang made in luar negeri daripada produk lokal. Karena menurutku ceritanya lebih menarik dan akting yang mereka lakukan lebih bagus dan berani. Sedangkan kita lihat sendiri, film-film LGBT yang produk lokal masih ARISAN saja yang menurutku terbilang cukup lumayan dibandingkan Detik Terakhir atau film-film lainnya. Untuk Detik Terakhir, aku menyukai tema Lesbiannya dan akting pemerannya tapi apakah memang harus dibarengi sama drugs? Koq sepertinya homoseksual ga jauh-jauh amat dari seks and drugs. Yah aku lebih mikirnya ke arah sudut masyarakat umum yang ga tahu apa-apa tentang homoseksual, kan jadinya di cap jelek. Yah.. setidaknya untuk akhir-akhir ini di industri persinemaan Indonesia sendiri sudah lumayan banyak dijumpai film dengan unsur LGBT walau masih kurang greng dibandingkan produk luar. (chocco)

Ah!
Ooo!
Ah!

Do,do,do,do,do,do
Do,do,do,do.

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor (Be on the floor…)
Dear, but my eyes will see only you (See only you…)
Only you have that (Oooo…) magic technique.
When we sway I go weak (I go so weak)

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins (It begins…)
Make me thrill as only you know how (You know how…)
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Ah!

Mi amor.

Sway me, make me (Hey yeah.)
Thrill me, hold me (Hold…)
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me (Me…!)

Hey yea.

Sway Me.

Ooo!

Sway,sway,sway…

Ba ba ba da da, Ba ba ba da da, Ba ba da da,
Ba ba ba da da, Ba ba ba da da, ba da ba da ba.

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins

Make me thrill as only you know how (You know how…)
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Make me thrill as only you know how (Come and sway me)
Sway me smooth (Ah!), sway me now (Come and sway me baby come and sway me)

Make me thrill as only you know how (Ah!)
Sway me smooth (Uh huh, uh huh), sway me now

Sway me
Sway me
Sway me now

PS : diz song very sexy and make me wanna dance wherever it is LOL